Cuando Empecé

At Vivo City, after clique outing in Sentosa, 26 September 2007
(From left to right: JieJie, Me, the Pinkie Pork, Lui, Weng Hong and Woo)
somehow, Pinkie Pork seems to be so shy, ^^

Beginning is scary. Ending is Sorrow. This quote taken from the speech in the farewell chapel keeps lingering in my mind though i am about to conclude my day with a sleeping-euphoria. It brings back memory when I started my journey in the unknown IB Programme. When it started, it was hell. Indeed, I have the agony burning in my heart when the morning light greeted my day - "Haizz, another day of torture" seemed to be my favorite phrase back then. Why? There is a test called DISC Test, which classifies people to 4 major categories, and I, expectedly, fall into S groups, which simply suggests that I am a very sociable person. Yes, the very reason I detest the school deep to the core of my heart was not the school, but the fact that I had no friends. I perceived the people around me as rich spoilt brats who only know what "suffering" means, but never be able to explain how it feels. They only know how to attend parties, drinking till losing their conscience, only to appear "cool". Their angelic facade took me a while to discover - how they always laugh and cry together, yet the backstabs were never ending. I simply took a conclusion that I did not belong to the pupils here and was desperate to move out. Adding as a spice to my sorrow was my grandmother's death - it simply made things worse. And I had, finally, succumbed to the devil's temptation in giving up hope in The Lord, thinking that He had simply ignored me, abandoned me in this wheel of fire, which torment me every single second.
I barely survived my first 6 months journey in the school, with an almost-zero level of confidence. I was lost. Yet, at that point of time, my guardian angel reappear again in front of my eyes and extricate me from the depth of inferiority and sorrow and brought me up again to the surface of peace, where i have had advanced on until now. Anyway, my guardian angel is not the usual angel. She is special. She is the seraph whose wings the vastest, who shines the brightest and whom I always look up to, since I was born.
Many has occurred. Ups and Downs. Ecstasy and Sorrow. Yet, i do feel, these experiences are those who mould me as who am I right now. By learning, what is suffering and what is a real joy, i now could understand what is it to give sorrow and joy to others. As in friends, i have made many, making my journey in the school an unforgettable one. And as it is about to end, it is a heaven for me. Gratias.

"Though i live surrounded by trouble,
you keep me alive - to my enemies' fury!
You stretch your hand out and save me,
your right hand will do everything for me.
Yahweh, your love is everlasting,
do not abandon us whom you have made."
Psalms 138: 7-8